Letting Go....

It is extremely important to warn someone if you know they are walking down the wrong path, but it is even harder when you must watch them take that route anyway.  

As parents, we MUST allow our adult children to make their own choices, loving them unconditionally.  This sure is tough, but just like Our Father, we must warn them and consistently show them the right way, and hope and pray that they stop to listen and take a U-Turn.   And when they do, be there with open forgiving arms.  

This particular post is not God inspired, but instead a post to GOD.  I am struggling with this in my own life, as I have an 18 year old son.  There are times when I do not know where he is, or what he is doing. There are times when I find him in places that I know are unsafe or wrong,  and I want to grab him by the ear and take him home with me and make his choices for him, but I can't.  

So, instead I go to GOD, and read HIS Word!  This morning, I have been led to 2 Peter 1-15 and I find peace.  

Peter greets those "who have received a faith of the same kind as ours, by the righteousness of our God and Savior, Jesus Christ", and I am truly grateful to have come this far in my faith, and my prayer today is that GOD will be present when I approach my son this afternoon, as I will attempt to follow in Peter's example in verse 12-15:  "Therefore, I will always be reaady to remind you of these things, even though you already know them, and have been established in the truth which is present with you.  I consider it right, as long as I am in this earthly dwelling, to stir you up by way of reminder, knowing that the laying aside of my earthly dwelling is imminent, as also our Lord Jesus Christ has made clear to me.  And I will also be diligent that at any time after my departure you will be able to call these things to mind."  

This is My Story in The story, and today I hope it brings other parents with adult children some kind of peace.  Don't NOT warn and instruct your adult child, but DO let them make their own choices.  I know how very dificult this is, but remember GOD loves U-turns, and as parents we do too!  

Thank You Father, for instilling me with this knowledge and Thank You Father for bringing me peace this morning.  Thank You Father for being ever so present in my parenting, and I ask that You be present in this particular situation today.  I give my concern to You, and trust and believe in Your plan for My son.  AMEN

Don't hold back...

I have found it difficult to let myself become vulnerable with my blog these past couple of weeks.  I have felt GOD's calling to do so....but because of fear, I hold back.  I have let worry take over my desire to blog.    I have listened to the world instead of GOD.  I admit it, and I continue to pray about it.

Have you ever felt a strong desire to say something to someone, yet you don't because you are afraid how they might react?  Father, I give this concern to you, and I continue to ask for you to give me the courage I need, to do what you want me to do.

Yesterday, I was made aware of something my husband did that made me very proud of him.  You see...my husband doesn't hold back.  He has always said what is on his mind.  Often times, I have judged him for this, but more recently I commend him for it.

My daughter has adopted a new set of "grandparents".  We have new neighbors across the street and Jessica has been visiting them daily for the last couple of weeks.   They are a retired couple and seem to really enjoy her daily visits.  At least for now; I do hope she does not wear-out her welcome.  I worry about that, and have mentioned it to them several times, but they insist they look forward to her ringing their door bell.

Yesterday, I looked out my window and noticed she was helping them decorate their yard with Christmas lights and candy canes, and a beautiful sleigh with reindeer and a waving Santa Claus.  I walked across the street to make sure she was not getting in the way.  He insisted she was a delight and part of the reason they were decorating.   He continued to explain that it had been seven years since they celebrated Christmas, or decorated at all; not even a Christmas tree had been on display in their home.  Seven years!  I was shocked!  He explained to me that due to a "falling out" with his daughter, they no longer had a reason to celebrate Christmas.  They have two grandchildren and have not spent Christmas with them in seven years!

They mentioned this to my husband a few days ago, and something my husband said to them, made them change their minds about Christmas.  My husband in a matter of words, said to them that they were going about it all wrong.   He explained to them, their pride was overtaking their love!

Yesterday, my neighbor told me it was because of what my husband said to him, that made him change.
Make sure that nobody pays back wrong for wrong, but always strive to do what is good for each other and for everyone else. (1 Thessalonians 5:15 NIV)

He decided to stop being prideful and share his love! They are going "all out" this year; their outdoor lights blink to the sound of Christmas music and with Jessica's encouragement their home will resemble a gingerbread house by the weekend!

I invited them to celebrate Christmas with our family, but my real hope is that they decline for a reason that they will be sharing it with their daughter and her family instead for the first time in seven years.

My husband made a difference because he didn't hold back!  Can you imagine what a difference we can make, if we just listen and let the Holy Spirit talk for us?

Please pray for me....I don't want to hold back!

For day after day they seek me out;
they seem eager to know my ways,
as if they were a nation that does what is right
and has not forsaken the commands of its God.
They ask me for just decisions
and seem eager for God to come near them. (Isaiah 58:2 NIV)

Invisible Friend

I have been wondering when I would be inspired to write again.  Not much has moved me this week. Something about Sundays that gives me a boost!  I couldn't wait to come home and write today.

This has been an interesting week.  My four year old has entered a new stage of imagination!

Jessica is with me all day; we are with other preschoolers in the mornings, but since school started there are no children in the neighborhood, so Jessica gets lonely in the afternoons.  Chris has been busier than usual with work, and her brothers have a new video game, so she has not had the attention she is used to having, and I have had my fill of her, if you know what I mean.

On our way to the grocery store this week, Jessica introduced me to her new "friends".  She informed me they were in the back seat of our car, and asked me if it was okay if they come in the store with us.  I am embarrassed to tell you my response was not very nice.  I said,  "Jessica, I am so tired and really wanted you to stay home with Michael, so, no, your friends will just have to wait in the car!"  She seemed to realize my lack of imagination at the time, so she decided to appease me.   When we got back to the car, she apologized to her friends for making them wait, and promised a tea party with them as soon as we got home.  She then told me I could come too, but suggested I take a nap first.   I have not been inspired to blog until today.

These "friends" have moved into our home!   On the way to church this morning, she informed her brother Michael that he would have to sit in the middle seat between her and Matt instead of the very back where he usually sits, because her friends were already back there.   My 13 year old was not too happy to sit in the narrow middle seat, but due to his little sister's persistance, he appeased HER this time.  

My husband, however, is a man of extreme patience when it comes to Jessica and her imagination!  He went right along with everything she and her "friends" had to say this morning.    He managed to calm Michael down and enlight us all!  He suggested Jessica add 1 more friends to her group.  He suggested she add Jesus!  My husband is a genius!

I know I am thrilled to have Jesus as my invisible friend, and I LOVE that HE is every where I go!  Even when I forget He is there.  My pastor said it best...GOD LOVES U-TURNS!   I took a big U-turn on the way to church this morning in regards to Jessica and her "friends".  I am thrilled she has these "friends" and even more excited that Jesus has joined the group!

You know what?  Once you become a Christ follower, you never have to be alone!  GOD is everywhere, and HE is always right beside you!  Talk to HIM, HE is listening!  He wants to be in your life!

If you have not accepted Jesus as your personal savior, it is never too late.

1. Confess your sins and admit that you are a sinner. See Romans 3:10

2. Be willing and ready to repent from your sins. See Acts 17:30

3. Believe that Jesus died on the cross for you, was buried, and rose from the dead. See Rom 10:9-10

4. Pray and invite Jesus to come into your life and become your personal savior. See Rom 10:13

5. Read and study the Holy bible and fellowship with other Christians. 

GOD BLESS!

Michael

Michael is my 13 year old son.  He is the third born of four children.

I remember when Chris and I were awaiting the news of our ultra sound of our third child.
I was very certain that GOD intended for me to have a little girl someday.
So, when the nurse informed us that I was carrying another boy, I looked at Chris and muttered between my teeth "one more, real quick, that's it!"

However, it was not soon after Michael learned to crawl that I remember saying "no more, that's it, get fixed!"

Michael was a difficult child to raise, but I sure do cherish those days now!  The first 10 years of that boys life, I wondered if he may actually have a demon in him.  I prayed over that boys room night after night!

At the age of 6, Michael was diagnosed with ADHD and with the help of medication, he became a little more tolerable and easier to raise.  He still gave us quite a challenge, but with consistence and GOD's guidance, he has matured into a very smart and lovable kid!  

I am so proud of Michael!  He is smart, funny, loving, compassionate, and a pure joy to be around!
Last night, he stood in front of many and gave his baptismal testimony!

My heart warms with memories of Michael and how difficult life was wondering if I was raising him with enough love and discipline.  But, because GOD is so good and trusting, I know HE has answered my prayers!  GOD has BIG plans for Michael and I am very excited to watch Michael grow in HIS faith!

Thank you GOD for allowing me to be Michael's mother!  Thank you for YOUR continued guidance as I parent Michael according to YOUR will!

I am very confident that Michael will make a difference in many people's lives!  He can read people; he has a gift to make others feel good about themselves.  He brings laughter to many with his charm!
I love my KID!  Thank you GOD for Michael!!

Hormones

I choose to write about MY story in THE story, and tonight I want to write about what I am feeling, and I am feeling hormonal!  Hormonally balanced that is...

Due to fascinating bio-medical science, I am a 44 year old woman experiencing my life as a twenty year old woman all over again!  Can I get a WOOP, WOOP!!!  

You know...LIFE IS GOOD!  I am happily married to a very loving husband, and wonderful father, and better yet..man of GOD who is also very fit, I might add!  TMI?  perhaps...but I just want to shout to the roof tops!!

Being hormonally balanced is so important!  Are you taking anti-depressents?  Are you experience fatigue?  Are you depressed?  Do you have low sex drive?  When was the last time you had a blood test to see where your hormone levels were?  

I had a complete hysterectomy in 2008!  For 4 years I dealt with hormonal imbalance, taking anti-depressants, and suffering with weight gain, low self-esteeem, fatigue and low sex drive.   NO MORE!

I highly recommend you seek a hormone specialist in your area and check into bi-medical hormone replacement therapy.  

I will leave you with a link to a fun video tonight....to  express how I feel!  

I AM WOMAN, HEAR ME ROAR!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZBkoJLclZkk

Enlightened in 2012 - Part 2

I became a yo-yo-dieter.  I lost and gained the same 15 pounds three times over the course of one year.   I had let my weight define who I was.  I didn't love myself, and I was not letting anyone else love me either, including my husband.  Did I mention my turmoil over the last 10 years?  The details are really meaningless at this point, but let's just say it was pure turmoil!

I spent this entire year examining my turmoil with a new perspective, without blame.   Who am I to judge, right?

Brothers and sisters, do not slander one another. Anyone who speaks against a brother or sister or judges them speaks against the law and judges it. When you judge the law, you are not keeping it, but sitting in judgment on it. There is only one Lawgiver and Judge, the one who is able to save and destroy. But you—who are you to judge your neighbor? (James 4:11, 12 NIV)

I blamed everything, and everyone, including myself for my turmoil.   I prayed...but looking back now...they were empty prayers.  They were selfish prayers.  I have never been very patient either, I prayed according to MY will, not GOD's wills!   

      

This spring, my family started going to church...TOGETHER!  My husband was never one to pray, or attend church.  This was one of those prayers that tried my patience!  GOD needed me to trust HIM with this one, but I was nearing my rope if you know what I mean.  

I also began studying the bible this summer, and I continue to study Scripture daily.  I have always read scripture, but until recently did I study The Word.  There really is a big difference, and I highly recommend it.

I no longer let my weight define me.  I LIVE FOR JESUS!  CHRIST DEFINES ME!  

I am learning to seek GOD's WILL and I hope this blog is enlightening.  As I believe in my church's mission statement and understand it to be HIS will "to make followers of Jesus Christ who in turn make followers of Jesus Christ."

If you are not currently seeking GOD, I encourage you to find a good bible-based church.  I believe it is important for every believer to have a healthy church home where they can connect with other believers and grow in their faith.   MAY GOD BLESS YOU!

Enlightened in 2012 - Part 1

I have been on a self-worth journey since the beginning of 2012 and nearing the year end, I am finally enlightened!   I feel the need to point out, that it has not always been so easy for me to be so open and vulnerable with my personal business.     But I DO know that it sure is easier when GOD instructs you to do it, and I trust HE is using me to do a great work.

So on to more personal stuff...
In 2010, I was the heaviest and saddest I had every been.  I was 50 pounds too heavy for my frame, and my marriage was failing for like the sixth time!  (This is yet another blog, I am sure GOD is leading me to write, but I have some more to pray about before I provide details on that subject.)

I discovered a weight loss protocol "Pounds and Inches", that was actually discovered by Dr. A.T.W. Simeons sometime in the early 1960's, but the American diet industry suppressed it for 40 years.  I researched this protocol for several months before I actually decided to try it.  It worked; I lost 50 pounds in four months following the protocol using HCG Hormone diet drops.

I documented my weight loss with a video diary on the internet, and I met several other "dieters" who also did the same thing.  A few of the women decided to meet and run a half-marathon together.  I had only flown in a plane less than five times in my life, and never once alone, so you can imagine my family's reaction when I said I was going to do this.   I was rediscovering myself!  I was that skinny girl again, that happy-go-lucky, no care in the world girl, again!  The women I met, knew that girl...ME, but I had forgotten who she was.  That girl had been missing for 10 years, and entire decade!

Well, I managed to maintain my weightloss for a year and half.  Life was good, I was confident again, and my marriage was better than it ever had been.  Until, I started gaining back some of the weight.  I immediately became lost again.  My self-esteem was dwindling, and I found myself depressed with very low self-esteem and my marriage was failing worse than ever before!  With every pound I gained, I found myself disliking myself all over again!

But wait...the HCG Diet...it worked before...yeah, I went on that roller coaster ride a few more times, but why wasn't it working the way it did before?
I have so much more to tell you, but I will have to conclude this part of my journey in another post...

My fourth decade: 2000's

Wow, my life is literally flashing before my eyes!

I sit in the same kitchen tonight that was built in October of 2000!  Chris and I moved four times before settling in this home.    We have been here more than a decade!

I really don't know where to begin to describe these 10 years of my story.  So much has happened!
As I take a deep breath, I realize I may not have the strength to re-live it.   I think I may have tried to block a lot of it out of my memory for a good reason.

I don't know how much of my story GOD intends for me to tell.  So I will sit awhile and pray....

My husband's mother was diagnosed with lung cancer in 2000.  She was confined to a chair for four years, and died in April, 2004.   I did not have a loving relationship with my mother-in-law or her daughters.  In fact, it was quite torturous to be around them most of the time.   I hesitate even today to bring any of the past to the present because it is exactly that...in the past!  I can't say I did not suffer emotionally from Satans attacks, but I can tell you I survived!  GOD is my strength and my refuge!

I was able to resolve my relationship with my mother-in-law before she passed, but the scars that were left took several more years to heal.

In 2006, Chris and I were going through another rough spot in our marriage  He was traveling frequently and I was suffering from depression after miscarrying a baby.  Satan kept us in his web for a few years.  We stopped going to church too.  I did everything possible to stay close to Christ during these trials, and HE never left my side.

I opened my  preschool business later that year, and firmly believe it is a calling from GOD.  HE continues to bless me each year with enduring children to teach!

In 2007, I became pregnant with a baby girl!  The doctors did not give us much hope, however, because a tumor was sure to cause another miscarry.  I was overwhelmed with faith that GOD was going to give me a daughter.  I held on to my faith every week, even though the doctors kept telling me she would not survive.  At 20 weeks, I had surgery to remove the tumor that was growing right beside my little girl, and went into labor.  The labor was stopped, but I was bed-ridden for the rest of my trimester.

Jessica was born in Feb, 2008 a very healthy baby girl!  I dealt with a few more problems after child birth and had a complete hysterectomy later that year.  Menapause at 40 meant depression, weight gain, and more marital problems.

In 2010, I discovered the HCG Diet!  I started a weight loss journey and lost 50 pounds in four months and ran my first half-marathon.  I thought being thin would make me happy....I will tell you more in my next post....

My third decade: 1990's

I never took my education seriously.  I suppose I would have done things differently if I would not have lucked into such a great job at a young age.  I mentioned in my last posts, that I worked at a manufacturing company in the summer months through out my highschool and college years.  

I was a natural athlete, and actually turned down several full-ride scholarships to Universities across the United States due to the distance away from my home.   I really didn't care to go to college at all!  I was "in love" with a boy from home, and I already had a great job, so in my mind, why go away.  My parents encouraged me to extend my education, and helped me choose a University that was only a few hours away, and also I had two cousins already attending that same school.  

If I did it all over again, I would have followed my passion for music and drama instead of Business Administration, but I had the job, so I went that route.  I met many wondeful friends during my college days, but I can't say much for my education.  I studied only enough to maintain my grades to keep my track scholarhsip.  

After college, I was hired full time at the same manufacturer I had worked since I was 16.  I learned pretty quickly, it is not always "what" you know, but also "who" you know.  I managed to work my way up the corporate ladder and forgot all about my "dreams", until I met Chris, the TRUE love of my life!  I was fairly confident then and very confident now, that this was GOD's plan for me all along!  

Chris and I married in 1992, gave birth to our first son in 1994, moved out of our "starter home" into a "family home" in 1995, quit my career to become a stay-at-home mom and had our second son in 1996.   We moved "back home" near our parents in 1998, and had our third son in 1999.  

Of course, many things happened (good and bad) during those child bearing and moving years, but those incredible events will have to be seperate blogs....(I promise)...on to my next decade...    

My second decade: 1980's

I was 12 years old in 1980.
I started babysitting at the age of 12.  My first babysitting job was a neighbor infant.  I sure am glad I was only a house away from my own mom, because when that diaper exploded...let's just say the memory will be forever marked in my brain!

I loved babysitting; in fact, I know GOD was preparing me for a calling.  It is why I am a preschool teacher today!  I had a standing babysitting position for several years.  Every Friday and Saturday night, I would trade sitting for two families.  I think I only "messed up" once.  The story is too funny not to share...

Believe it or not, I was instructed to give the child a suppository!  I was 13 years old at the time, and I was proud of how mature I handled the request.  "No problem, what time would you like for me to give it to him?"  I said.  I thought it was a pill to be chewed, and the child did what I asked him to do with it. Of course he spit it out, but I was smarter than him, so I tricked him and put it in a piece of bread.  When the parents returned home, as usual, the children were sleeping peacefully.  I had a knack for getting them to sleep....I wore them out!  The mother asked if I had any problems with giving the suppository, and I proudly told her about my trick to get him to swallow it.  She gasped!  Luckily, nothing happened and the child slept fine and I was forgiven.  I was 13 years old, for Pete's sake!

I really was a great babysitter, and I cared deeply for the kids.  I watched out for them, and sometimes took them to the park or skating rink on my days off.

I finally discovered boys around the age of 15.   I had been spending a lot of time at the pool, and since you
you don't wear glasses when you swim, I suppose I started looking more attractive.  My dad was very strict, and he made a rule that I was not allowed to date until I was 17, and even then I had to double date.  There was no rule about kissing though, and I remember it like it was yesterday!  I doubt it was his first kiss, but I do hope he remembers kissing me.  It sure will always be very special to me!

The summer I turned 16, I got a job working as a "copy girl" at a large manufacturing company in the city.  It was a 45 minute drive, and I didn't own a car, so I carpooled.  My mom would take me to the carpool lot at 6 am,  I worked 7:30-4:00, and on good days with low traffic, I would get home by 5.  I was very glad to have money.  I spent ever dime I made too.  I grew up poor, remember, so it was great to finally be able to dress and "fit in".   I realized how much more attractive I was without my glasses too, so I stopped wearing them all together!  

My first official "date" was one my father had to approve of.  He persuaded my brother to ask one of his friends to take me to a school dance.  Lucky for me, I was in love with just about everyone of my brother's best friends, so I was just peachy with that news!

My first true love was at the age of 17.  My high school sweetheart broke my heart.  I was so in love, I thought I would marry him someday!  I am certain I am not the only woman who thought she would marry her first true love.

I graduated from high school in 1986.  I dated many more boys over the course of the next three years, but fell in love again in 1989.  And of course, I assumed I would marry him.  My college sweetheart broke my heart too.  It took two years to get over that one!

The next decade is when I met my REAL true love...you can read about that in my next post. 

My first decade: 1970's

Since I started blogging in my mid 40's, I realize I may need to catch you up on a few years.  Ok, more than several years....before I go too much farther into my youth diary; however, I must admt that my memory is not very good.  So, I can only tell you how I remember things.   Whether they are factual or not, they are my memories.  

I suppose I could start with when I was born, but I think I need to provide a little information about my parents first.

My Dad had planned to be a Priest, and my Mom, a Nun.  They met while working for the same Catholic Publication company.  GOD had a slightly different calling for their lives.  They got married and had six children!   

I was born in the spring of 1968.  My mom had four boys between 1960 and the fall of 1966, and 17 months later, I was born.   The first girl after four boys!  My sister was born three years later.  

I loved growing up in a small town.  I either rode my bike or walked, and I don't really remember having any boundaries, as long as I was home moments after the street lights came on.  Back in the 1970's, kids were outside climbing trees, and exploring the woods and railroad tracks.  My brothers really didn't like me tagging along, but they always said as long as I could keep up, I was welcome to follow them.  You can imagine, I was quite the "tom boy". 

We were a tight knit family.  Eight family members shared one television, as well as one bathroom!  Needlesstosay, there was not much privacy, if you know what I mean!

Looking back, I would say we were poor, but I didn't really know it.  My Dad worked hard to send us to private school.  I suppose that is why we only had one vehicle.  I guess I never really thought about it before now, but even though you could get to my school in five minutes in a car, it took more than an hour and half on the bus, not because of the many stops, but because of the infrequent stops between towns.    Most of the kids in my neighborhood attended the public school, so the Catholic school kids lived all over and in neighboring towns.  My school was small and only had one bus, so you can imagine the miles I traveled each morning and afternoon!  I don't know if my older brothers would remember it the same way, but this is how I remember it.  My bus driver was a crazy driver and rarely drove the speed limit and had no regard to railroad tracks or pot holes!  

I really don't remember a lot about my childhood, and I asked my mom to help me remember.  She told me she doesn't remember it either, because she was too busy dealing with my brothers.  She tells me I was a good kid and she didn't have to worry about me.  I do know that I spent many weekends and most of my summer days at the pool, or at a neighbors house.  There was family that lived on a street behind me with two girls my age.  I think I lived with them!  I remember ringing their door early in the mornings, and running home to eat a pbj sandwich, and going right back over until dinner!  

I do remember being very active, playing kickball in the street, running through the mosquitto spray truck getting lost in the "fog of chemical", and having no care in the world!  I never was a Girl Scout, or involved with extra curiculur activies but I do remember being a happy child!  

I can remember a little more from the 1980's, so if you are interested, you can learn more in my next post.  

Purple Puzzle Tree

UPDATE:  I recorded them on youtube: 

When I was a child, I was consumed with a record and book series titled:  The Purple Puzzle Tree.
Yes, I am dating myself, as I did mention "record" series.  You remember, the big 33 record albums from the 1970's?  I LOVED my Purple Puzzle Tree series!  I listended to them many times almost daily for years!

This series consisted of 6 record sets including 36 story books of children bible stories written by Norman Habel.  He was asked to write 36 stories for a grade school (Bethel Primary School, in St. Louis).  My Dad had worked for Ligouri Publications, and they sold the series for Concordia Publishing House.  Well over a million copies were sold!

I listened to them so often, that still today I have the song memorized and sing it every time I think about it!  "God had a puzzle plan, a plan for you and me!  To fit together piece by piece, in his purple puzzle tree.    Tiger, tiger, tell me do you fly? Do you slink around the ground or soar about the sky? God made tigers, God made you and me, to fit together piece by piece in a purple puzzle tree. ... You will find the pieces fit, much to your surprise, when you learn to see God's world through laughing children's eyes."

When I was pregnant with my first son, I remember heading home to gather the series so that I could share it with my own children.  Much to my dismay, my mom no longer had the books, but she did have the records, so I spent an entire afternoon searching for a record player, so that I could record the records onto cassette tapes so I could play them in the car!  (I know, I'm still dating myself...)  

I have tried to find copies of the books, but unfortunately they are hard to come by as a series and to purchase them individually (if you can find them), can be very costly.   And today, for the life of me...I CAN'T find the cassette tapes!  I know they HAVE to be around here somewhere!

In my research today, I realized Concordia Publishing House stopped printing the orig., but now the Lutheran Church of Australia is taking the initiative to revive The Purple Puzzle Tree as a DVD with Norman Habel, now fifty years later, as The Old Storyteller sitting in front of a huge purple tree with leaves that bear images from the stories.  

Here is a link to one of the stories that Norman is working to revive.  I am sad to know that only the first 12 books are available to purchase on dvd.  I really hope someday to find the book series!

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=9ehXF5Ex1Bc

Oh....how I want my little girl Jessica to experience these wonderful bible stories as I did!

Optimism

Strawberry Shortcake is known for her huge heart and her spirited, "can-do" attitude! Strawberry Shortcake may be itty bitty, but she's full of "Berry, big possibilities"! Every day is a "Berry good day" with Strawberry Shortcake around!  

We can all learn a valuable lesson from this sweet character who has enough optimism to fill a whole strawberry field!  With the right attitude, you can overcome any obstacle!

I have always been an optimist.  I recall a time when I was playing little league softball and my team was losing bad.  I could tell my Dad had had enough of watching and wanted to leave.   I shouted out to him from the dugout "Don't worry, I think we still have a shot at winning!"  He still teases me about that to this day, because I think the score was like 15-0 in the ninth inning.  But, I sure had optimism!  

My husband shakes his head at me sometimes, and thinks I live in a fairy tale, but I assure him it is just simply living optimistically and having a lot of FAITH!

Everyone needs a friend like strawberry shortcake!  I aspire to be that type of wife, mother, friend, and acquaintence!

We read in Matthew 10:16," Behold, I send you out as sheep in the midst of wolves. Therefore be wise as serpents and harmless as doves." We as Christians are among those in the world who will make it difficult for us. We just need to study diligently the word of God.  It really can be that simple!

My scripture verse for today:
Show me your ways, O LORD, teach me your paths; guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.  Psalm 25:4-5


"However late you think you are, however many chances you think you have missed, however many mistakes you feel you have made or talents you think you don't have, or however far from home and family and God you feel you have traveled, I testify that you have NOT traveled beyond the reach of divine love. It is not possible for you to sink lower than the infinite light of Christ's Atonement." 
-Jeffrey R. Holland

"I'm finding myself at a loss for words

And the funny thing is it's okay

The last thing I need is to be heard

But to hear what You would say

Word of God speak

Would You pour down like rain

Washing my eyes to see

Your majesty

To be still and know

That You're in this place

Please let me stay and rest

In Your holiness 

Word of God speak"

Above are beautiful lyrics from the group "Mercy Me".  I really have no words for my blog this week, so I decided to share the lyrics instead.  I hope they touched you as much as they did me.  

Raising a little girl

Dear God, 

I don't want to raise my child to always want earthly treasures.  I want her to long to know Jesus and know how to live as he did!  I want her to store her treasures in heaven, not here on earth!  

My daughter will be heading off to kindergarten soon and attending a public school.  I want to shelter her from many of the things I already see most girls her age doing.  What is typical for a four year old girl to expereince at such a young age?  

Well, around here...most are attending pop concerts, riding in limousines, getting professional pedicures, wearing hair extensions, going to the movies, own multiple American Girl dolls (this is one I am trying to avoid), and fighting over boys already!  What will they have to look forward to as teenagers?  

What happened to innocense?  I want my little girl to wake up thanking Jesus for side walk chalk, trees to climb, parks, crayons, finger paint, having pretend tea parties with her stuffed animals, and Sesame Street! 

  

Forgive me Lord, for presenting anything unGodly to my child.  Father, Your Word says "seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you." Matthew 6:33  Help me, help her seek You first!

Father, today I seek discernment and wisdom for raising my little girl.

I want to raise her as Your Word instructs.  Help me understand when temptations arise to give her things that are not necessary.  Help me not spoil my little girl.   It is in Your son Jesus name I pray, and thank you for giving Him to me, and thank you for giving me Jessica to raise according to Your will!

2 Timothy 3: 14-17 

But as for you, continue in what you have learned and have firmly believed, knowing from whom you learned it and how from childhood you have been acquainted with the sacred writings, which are able to make you wise for salvation through faith in Christ Jesus. All Scripture is breathed out by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, and for training in righteousness, that the man of God may be competent, equipped for every good work.

The Open Door

Tonight, I am trying to catch up on my bible study homework.   I am on Day 3, when I should be finished with Day 5.  Oops!  Now, since I have been inspired to blog...I will be up even later trying to finish my homework before class tomorrow, but I must share what I just read.

This is a piece from Beth Moore's Session 6 Week 7, Day 3 of A Woman's Heart, God's Dwelling Place:

"A difficult sequence begins to unfold the moment we do not resist the first temptation.  Let's put ourselves in an example of an extramarital affair to determine the point at which we can fail to appropriate God's provision for our escape.  

Satan started weaving the web the first moment you realized that you and this man enjoyed each other's company. You experienced a spark that made it appealing; yet you had the distinct feeling that you had better run.

The alarms was loud.  An open door stood before you.  But you hestitated.  Then you refused it, offering your thoughts permission to proceed.  Little by little the relationship progressed.  Harmless, you reasoned.  (It must not be a big deal.  I no longer have the feeling that I need to run away.)  The alarm grew increasingly faint.  Satan had done everything he could to weave a web you could not escape;  but no matter how he tried, he could not slam that door.  It remained open.  Each time you refused to go through it, however, your strength to resist drained.  

This cycle of temptation, hesitation, and participation is as old as the garden of Eden, and it is not limited to sexual temptation.  Two things about a believer's temptation never vary: (1) We always have an open door, a way out.  (2) Every door we refuse to walk through makes the next one even harder to enter.  

If a person is inhabited by the Holy Spirit, an alarm sounds.  How can I say those words so dogmatically?  Because the Holy Spirit's job is to convict us of sin, and He is never late for work.  Remember, being tempted is not sin; refusing to take the way out is sin.  Either way, it is a matter of resistance.  We resist either the sin or the Holy Spirit.  

The obvious key to victory is walking through the first door of escape.  Every time we refuse another door, we lose more sensitivity to the Holy Spirit.  He never goes away, but the less sensitivity we have to Him, the less power we have until, finally, we find ourselves fighting the battle on our own, absolutely powerless against temptation.  In the flesh we always do what comes naturally, and what comes most naturally to every one of us is sin.  

Can you cite a time when you narrowly escaped a sin that could have ruined your life?  The important part is to acknowledge the One who opened before you a way of escape."

I for one, do not intend to take this passage I read lightly.  The Holy Spirit is always providing an open door for us to escape sin.  I am trying to devote some time every day with the Holy Spirit, so that I can be made more aware of any temptations that arise in my life.

Father, Thank You for giving us Your Son.  Because Christ has faced our every temptation without sin, we never face a temptation that has no door of escape.  "I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut" (Rev. 3:8)  Neither Satan nor anyone else can make us fall to temptation.  The door always remains open for our escape.  Thank You Jesus!  AMEN!!

The Power of Prayer

I was tapped on the shoulder today in the lobby at church.  I turned to see who it was....it was Johnny!

My 18 year old son has been living with my brother and his family in the city.  He is attending a community college near their home.  I will be forever grateful to my brother and sister in law for taking Johnny under their wing.   Johnny had been walking a path of destruction and we were forced to kick him out of the house this summer.  

It all started two years ago when he became friends with a group of marajuana smokers.  Then, he joined a gym and started taking testosterone boosters too.    After many months of disrespect and illegal fines piling up, my husband and I were forced to kick him out of our home.  Thankfully, my brother agreed to watch out for him and allow Johnny to stay with them for awhile.  

Johnny had planned to enlist in the military, but had to first take care of his legal issues.  When I was pregnant with Johnny, God made me aware that I was carrying one of HIS soldiers.  I didn't know exactly what HIS plans were for my son, but I sensed I needed to pray often and seek God's guidance to parent him to become a leader, someone that could grow to lead others to know God.  I did not think for once that Johnny would actually be a military soldier.  

As it seems...neither did God.   Johnny started working for my nephew and attending church with my brother and his family.  Not only was Johnny being taught tough love, he was finally being influenced by Christ followers.  He is hearing and living God's Word every day!  He enrolled in a community college where he is receiving an academic scholarship, he is making enough money to pay for his car, and has finally paid off all of his legal debts.  

I continue to pray about God's will for all of my children.  I pray that God will continue to guide me and help me to understand my role in HIS plans for my children.  

During the months that Johnny was disrespectful and very lost in his walk with God, I continued to lift him up and ask God to protect him and follow him and give him wisdom and discernment.  I prayed that God would put Godly role models in Johnny's life and to take anyone or anything evil out of his life.  I could do nothing but pray!   I had to put all of my trust in God and believe HIS plan for my child.  

Prayer is working!

Johnny decided to surprise me today at church and has spent the entire day with his family.  He is staying with us tonight, since he does not have class tomorrow.  He is going to his brother's soccer game and spending time with his little sister tomorrow.   He is becoming a great role-model for his younger brothers too.  My 16 year old was in the kitchen listening to a vulgar rap song and Johnny spoke up and told him he really should stop listening to that garbage, and suggested some really cool Christian rap songs instead.  He gave my 13 year old a challenge to memorize a Scripture verse and he accepted that challenge!  He brought his bible and went to visit a friend who does not know God to witness to him this evening!   

He also decided to give up his iphone.  He has been paying for his own data plan and today decided to go back to just a simple cell phone.  He told me that he wanted to spend his time more wisely and not waste it.  

Johnny told me this afternoon that he was very sorry for the way he had acted.  He told me he understands now how detrimental his actions were and that he only wants to live for Jesus!   I can't express the joy I have today!

Today, I am very proud and thanking GOD for saving my Son, and I will continue to cover him with my prayers.   I will never stop praying for my children.  

My most precious gift, my husband.

He did state that if I do blog, that I make sure I leave him out of it...but I insisted that it would be near impossible since My story involves him too.  (I think he will forgive me for this one, besides he doesn't read my blog anyway, so what he doesn't know, won't hurt him, sshhh)

I have not had any inspriation to blog this week.  It is not that I have not wanted to, but I just promised myself that I would wait for the right moment.  I try to let the Holy Spirit guide me when I need to blog.  It really does make it so much easier!

I am sad to report that I did not make it to church this past weekend, so I am viewing the service online tonight.  Wouldn't you know it, that in the middle of the video I was inspired to blog about the love of my life!

I do intend to finish the video, but I had to pop on and type out my thoughts!

My husband is such a gift from God to me!  I have said this more than once, in fact, I have a journal to prove it!  Now, I admit, that I have had some pretty serious trials with this man, in fact, we have almost been divorced twice.  But, God really did gift Chris to me!  I know that divorce will NEVER be a word mentioned or a thought provoked EVER again!  Especially, since after 20 years we are finally following Christ together!  I have prayed for this relationship and my prayers have been answered!

Chris is truly an amazing man!  He is not a quitter!  I have given him so many reason to give up on our marriage, and I have called him "idiot" more times than I can count, but one thing I know is he has never stopped loving me and for that I am truly grateful!  God gifted this man to me, and I
intend to cherish HIS gift for the rest of my life!

Chris and I have been married for 20 years.  I can for the first time in my marriage think back on the trials we have encountered without fear that they will return.  I can say with  confidence now, that Chris and I are soul mates!  I don't care to share the details of my marriage troubles because I want the Healer glorified, not the hurt.  It is more important that you know, I am more in love with him now that I ever have been and I have no doubt that he is more in love with me than he ever has been!

Chris and I had never followed Christ as a couple.  I have prayed for Chris to know Christ as I know HIM, but I really was not completely convinced my prayers were ever going to be answered.

God allowed a lot of bad things to happen with my marriage to Chris, but he did not authorize them!  My marriage is strong because I covered it with prayer.    HE protected my marriage and HE made it stronger than ever!

Thank you Father for gifting me Chris!

So they are no longer two, but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let no one separate." (Matthew 19:6 NIV)

Blessings in disquise

What are your blessings in disquise?  What trials have shaped your story?  I read these two questions side by side today, and I sit here pondering....

I have frequent blessings in disquise, in fact daily!   I have most recently discovered how to unfold them as they occur.   The more time I spend studying the bible, the less anguish I experience.

It is so important to me that I not quit this marathon I have started.   It is a good fear to have....to fear the Lord.  That is the biggest blessing in disquise!  God's Word!  He gave us the Bible, and we should NEVER take it for granted.  Have You spent time yet today with Him?

I leave you with a scripture I pondered on this morning:

Ephesians 4:20-32

New International Version (NIV)

²⁰ That, however, is not the way of life you learned ²¹ when you heard about Christ and were taught in him in accordance with the truth that is in Jesus. ²² You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self,which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; ²³ to be made new in the attitude of your minds; ²⁴ and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.
²⁵ Therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to your neighbor, for we are all members of one body. ²⁶ “In your anger do not sin”^[a]: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, ²⁷ and do not give the devil a foothold. ²⁸ Anyone who has been stealing must steal no longer, but must work, doing something useful with their own hands, that they may have something to share with those in need.
²⁹ Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others upaccording to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.³⁰ And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. ³¹ Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. ³² Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

Thank you for the music

Oh what joy!!!  I spent some time with my precious four year old  singing and dancing as we watched Mamma Mia together!  Today, I am thankful for the music....actually everyday, I thank you for the music!

I'm nothing special, in fact I'm a bit of a bore

If I tell a joke, you've probably heard it before

But I have a talent, a wonderful thing

'Cause everyone listens when I start to sing

I'm so grateful and proud

All I want is to sing it out loud

So I say

Thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing

Thanks for all the joy they're bringing

Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty

What would life be?

Without a song or a dance what are we?

So I say thank you for the music

For giving it to me

Mother says I was a dancer before I could walk

(hm hm)She says I began 

to sing long before I could talk

And I've often wondered, how did it all start

Who found out that nothing can capture a heart

Like a melody can

Well, whoever it was, I'm a fan

So I say

Thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing

Thanks for all the joy they're bringing

Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty

What would life be?

Without a song or a dance what are we?

So I say thank you for the music

For giving it to me

I've been so lucky, I am the girl with golden hair

I wanna sing it out to everybody

What a joy, what a life, what a chance!

Thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing

Thanks for all the joy they're bringing

Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty

What would life be?

Without a song or a dance what are we?

So I say thank you for the music

For giving it to me

So I Say

Thank you for the music

For giving it to me...

Are you listening?

I often find construction critism really painful.  Usually because deep down, I really know it to be truth!
Why is it that truth hurts?  Well, usually because we are far from God on the subject.

You know, it really is true!  When a human being, (especially a loved one) tells us something we really need to hear, we tend to avoid them and the subject all together.  But, we finally come to the realization that it is true, when it becomes unbearable to face, that we finally find ourselves begging for God's help!  And then, HE tells us the same thing that all our love ones have told us already once or twice, we finally hear it!  We really need to start listening better, dont we?

God uses humans in our lives.  Let them work for Him before it is too late!
He is shining on someone in your life right now, and you are doing everything possible to avoid them. Don't wait until it is too late!  Wake up!  You won't regret it!

Forgiveness is hard, but necessary for healing

I am writing this late Monday night.
I woke up tired; really tired and knew today was going to be one of those drag your feet kind of days.
I even told my preschoolers during our morning circle time "Kiddos, Ms. Kathy is tired today!"

After preschool class ended, I stressed once more to my own four year old that momma was tired, and once we got home from the grocery store, I planned to plop down on the couch next to her and rest.

I suppose it IS too much to ask for a mother of four to rest in the middle of the afternoon.   Not long after I enjoyed a skype session with a dear friend, did I get a phone call from my son's middle school principal.  She was calling to let me know that my son had a very bad bloody nose from tripping and falling down.  She stated that it looked as if it needed E.R. attention.  Michael gets nose bleeds easily, and even though she was in a panic due to so much blood, I assumed once we washed it away and pinched it, all would be just fine.

So, I pulled my tired self off the couch and put Jessica in the car seat and drove to the school.  When I got there, I walked in on the football coach, the Principal and the vice-Principal all tending to MIchael's bloody nose.  Michael then came forth with the real story.  He had been punched in the face by another student.  Apparently, the boy threathed the other students near him that he was very annoyed and he wanted to punch somebody.   Unfortunately, no adults were present and the other boys did not take him seriously, so unfortunately, my son became his victim.

We are finally home after spending 4 1/2 hours in the E.R.  Michael has a broken nose.

I am finishing my vlog early the next morning (Tuesday) after very little sleep.  I am very sad for two reasons.  One, of course, that my son is hurt, but I am just as sad for the other boy.  My heart breaks to know of a 13 year old boy dealing with enough anger in his life to want to punch an innocent stand by.

This morning as I write this I am praying for several people:
Dear God,
I pray that Michael will heal quicky and not need surgery.
I pray for the other boy (to remain nameless in my blog), that he heal from what ever is causing him to have anger.  I pray for his parents, that they are a blessing in his life and seeking your guidance.
I pray for my husand, that he can learn the same forgiveness that Michael and I have learned.  He now has anger for the other boy and is judging his situation and his parents without even knowing them.   Lord, I realize only you know what they must be dealing with, and I am trying to help my husband understand that we must trust you to help them, and also lean on you to help us forgive.
I pray for all others that continue to hate and judge, that they trust you and accept Christ into their lives, for YOU are light, peace, and joy in every situation.  Thank you Father.

Face to face

I realized something new about myself tonight.  I think I might actually be shy!
Ok, for those who really know me on a personal level or even on a first and last name basis for that matter, probably think I might be smoking something right now, but seriously....I think it it true!

I open up quite easily through facebook and email etc, but when it comes time to meet face to face, I clam up!  I have nothing to contribute to the conversation.  My attention span is so bad, when I am face to face with someone.  I can't focus at all!  I think I long to have a deep conversation with someone face to face, and when I finally get the opportunity it is not the same.

I don't want that to happen when I meet God.   He and I talk so personally, but what if when I finally meet Him, I clam up?  Not only that, I am just now getting to know James, Matthew, Mark, Luke, John, Paul, and Timothy, and I have so many others I want to know better...before I actually meet them too.  What if when I see them face to face, I have nothing to say?

Just wonderin....Just sayin...

Chili when it's chilly

Today was our first chilly day of the season and it also rained all day too, so of course, I craved Chili.

I think Autumn is my favorite season!  Well, on second thought, I think the beginning of every season is my favorite season.  HA!  Yeah, that's it; I embrace change; change is a good thing!  It means a fresh start, and who doesn't like a fresh start?

As I sit and ponder about my fresh start, I find myself smiling and taking a deep breath in and a slow breath out!  What a promising future ahead!!!

Tonight, I wish everyone reading this, a wonderful fresh new start as you embrace the change in season!  May God bless you all!  Now, I am going to go enjoy that chili simmerin on the stove....
Mmmmmm

Oblivious

Did I mention I am reading "Breaking Free" by Beth Moore.  It is an in-depth Bible study made into a reader-friendly version.  I am becoming a bit obsessed with Beth Moore these days, so when I saw the book on the shelf in my church lobby, I had to purchase it!

In the chapter I read today, I was given an assignment to think back on a time in my life that brought hardship.  I couldn't think of any!    I kept shrugging my shoulders thinking I guess I am just a lucky one.  Then, that answer wasn't good enough, so I dug deeper for a reason.  I prayed.

And then it came to me!

It is because I am selfish!  I make myself oblivious to everything bad around me. 

I don't watch the news, I don't read the paper, I completely guard myself from any personal relationships outside of my own family.   I can't comprehend hardships and I don't want to!

There, I admit it!  I avoid the world, because I fear hardship!

God help me be more aware of others struggles; help me so I can help them.  But, please do not make it so that I have to experience these hardships in order to understand them.  

Dear God

Hi God,

Thought I would spend sometime telling you about my day thus far:

Yes, I realize you already know what has been happening, and you know exactly what is going to happen next, but I also know you love to hear from me regardless.  Perhaps, even if it is to give me some form of insight to what my day SHOULD be about.  

First and foremost, I am very grateful to you for waking me up this morning!  

After getting the boys off to school, Jessica and I spent our extra minutes before preschool coloring pictures.  Aha, There ya go!  You just provided me some insight!  I should cherish those precious moments, because sooner than later I will miss having time coloring with my little princess!

After class ended, I dropped Jessica off at the babysitters and went to my bible study.  Of course, you know I am participating in my second Beth Moore study.  This one, A woman's heart, God's Dwelling Place, is much different that James, Mercy Triumphs, but I am still grateful for the life-changing experiences each study has brought me.  Thank you for Beth Moore and her spit-fire energy!  She is delightful!  I had chills as she finished describing how the 12 tribes and their camps surrounded the tabernacle in the form of a cross.  It is amazing the things I am learning as I study Your Word!

Oh!  And, thank you for helping me with my talk with Johnny today.  Even though I had to be firm,  he was very receptive!  I can tell you are doing a great work in him!  Thank you for being so present in his life these days!

Michael got home early from football practice, and asked to go to the High School volleyball game.  Chris was invited to play tennis with a friend tonight, and Jessica has bible class, so I am off the hook for cooking a family meal.  Of course, Matt will be walking in the door anytime from soccer practice, and I am certain he will be hungry as a bear.  HA!  I guess you knew that already, he just came in and asked for my money to go to eat with a friend!  

WOW! My ipad just notified me to skype with a friend!   I know you sent her to me; so thanks for that too!   And, thanks for giving me the free time *wink*

I LOVE YOU!!

Kathy  

Looking out for others

Today, I am reminded of a story, and would like to share it:

There once was a mouse who looked through the crack in
the wall to see the farmer and his wife opening a package.
"What food might this contain?" thought the mouse. He was
devastated to discover it was a mousetrap.

Retreating to the farmyard, the mouse proclaimed the
warning. "There is a mousetrap in the house! There is a
mousetrap in the house!"

The chicken clucked and scratched, raised her head and
said, "Mr. Mouse, I can tell this is a grave concern to
you, but it is of no consequence to me, I cannot be
bothered by it."

The mouse turned to the pig and told him, "There is a
mousetrap in the House!"

The pig sympathized but said, "I am so very sorry Mr.
Mouse, but there is nothing I can do about it but pray.
Be assured that you are in my prayers."

The mouse turned to the cow. She said, "Wow, Mr. Mouse,
I'm sorry for you. But it's no skin off my nose."

So the mouse returned to the house, head down and
dejected, to face the farmer's mousetrap alone.

That very night a sound was heard throughout the house
like the sound of a mousetrap catching its prey.

The farmer's wife rushed to see what was caught. In the
darkness she did not see that it was a venomous snake
whose tail the trap had caught. The snake bit the
farmer's wife. The farmer rushed her to the hospital and
she returned home with a fever.

Now everyone knows you treat a fever with fresh chicken
soup, so the farmer took his hatchet to the farmyard for
the soup's main ingredient.

But his wife's sickness continued, so friends and
neighbors came to sit with her around the clock. To feed
them, the farmer butchered the pig.

The farmer's wife did not get well. She died; and so many
people came for her funeral the farmer had the cow
slaughtered to provide enough meat for all of them.

So next time you hear that someone is facing a problem
and think that it doesn't concern you, remember that when
one of us is threatened, we are all at risk.

I leave you with a scripture that goes right along with this little story:
Don’t look out only for your own interests, but take an interest in others, too. (Philippians 2:4 NLT)

Vulnerability

I allowed myself to be very vulnerable today.  I have done so in the past, but not under God's instruction.  Today was different.  I had nothing to prove; therefore I was not humiliated.  Instead, I was blessed tremendously!  

I have learned, if you know who you are in Christ, your personal ego is not an issue.  This was such a great lesson for me.  When I gave my testimony to live for Jesus, I meant it; and I am truly being blessed in more ways than I can count!

I have a purpose!

My son came home today feeling inadequate.  I asked the Holy Spirit to guide me to say the right thing to comfort him.  I will spare the details for his own privacy.  Nonetheless, I was able to help him find his own purpose.  After we talked, we prayed together and then I gave him this scripture:

Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters, (Colossians 3:23 NIV)  Now, he has a purpose!  

I too have experienced the feeling of being inadequate.  It is not healthy.  Satan dwells on our vulnerability and our insecurities, but as Christians we must remember to remain confident in Christ to humble ourselves.  If we are not able to go outside of our comfort zone, we will never know the one thing that is pleasing to Christ.   Trust in HIM, and listen closely, he will not let you perish.  God's way is the safe way; the right way!  

Content in my own circumstances

You ever go to someone's house and wish you lived there?  You ever see a beautiful girl, and wish you looked like her?  You ever walk in a store, and want to buy everything in it?  

I am wiling to admit, I have done all of these things, and I have done them recently!

The Holy Spirit overwhelmed me today at church through Pastor Tom's message.  

Here are a few scriptures from today's message:

"Peacemakers who sow in peace raise a harvest of righteousness." James 3:18

"Turn from evil and do good; seek peace and pursue it.  The eyes of The Lord are on the righteous, and his ears are attentive to their cry.  Pslam 34:14-15

"A heart at peace gives life to the body, but envy rots the bones" Proverbs 14:30

"Better a dry crust with peace and quiet than a house full of feasting, with strife." Proverbs 17:1

That last one really hit home with me.  Pastor Tom made the following statement: "It is not quantity, it is quality that brings peace."

I spent way too much time yesterday wanting my home to have more stuff in it.  I spent way too much time wishing I could afford plastic surgery and make myself more beautiful.  I can't tell you how humbled I am right now!  

When I arrived back home from today's church service, I looked real hard in the mirror and walked around my beautiful home and kept repeating "Thank you God", "Thank you God", Thank you God".

I spent sometime in prayer and then opened up my bible to Philipeans 4.  HIS words rang loud once again in verses 11-12..."Not that I speak from want, for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am.  I know how to get along with humble means, and I also know how to live in prosperity; in any and every circumstance I have learned the secret of being filled and going hungry, both of having abundance and suffering need."

I sure have a lot to be thankful for...